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"Amanda"
Incest Survivor Case Study
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Names and other identifying facts have been changed.
Any similarity to person's living or dead is purely coincidental. |
Hi Amanda, this morning I found myself thinking about you a lot. I kept getting drawn to you and thinking about your situation and what I realized was that somewhere I was clairvoyantly tuning into to you and feeling something. And I just started seeing how, seeing how warm and open and loving you are and giving and then there's a paradox with you and Dominic having like large spaces of time. Large, you may not; somehow as I looked at you I was really seeing that you don't want to have a really close relationship. It's easier for you when you have space; you have space from an intimate relationship.
I just found myself thinking about that and feeling for you and seeing how you were relating to Dominic and seeing your anger and feeling that anger underneath. Then I started getting very strongly inside of me that you are in strong reaction to something with men, something with your father. It began to become clear to me, at least from my perception, the way I'm looking at it, it seems that there was sexual abuse there with your father. You were the target of sexual abuse from your father.
It is very possible that you have conscious recall of this and conscious knowledge of it. Many people that we interact in this way, had buried their abusive experience under the surface. These people are usually more withdrawn and more fearful, some of are outgoing and have a lot of positive energy going out, very often those people remember their experience. It is more on the surface and their dealing more with their anger about what happened than their fear.
For a number of years now, people who have been sexually abused have been finding us in very unusual ways. We usually make the time to help a person get to another place with his or her experience. We urge that they take responsibility for the negative role they may have played, and work to see it in a more responsible and healthy way. Most will clear out a lot of personal negativity and negative reaction. They understand more about what they have actually been doing that is negative and destructive.
The way we interact with people is not conventional therapy so what happens is a tremendous amount of inner change in a very short time. The way Neil describes is that we help a person to take his or her life apart, put it on the table and evaluate negative aspects of it, then they can choose how they want to put their life back together again.
By seeing negative aspects of self and by scrutinizing them, a person can get to see a much that he or she was not conscious of (or being vaguely conscious) before. In that way, a person is able to change some things on a very core level.
I help Neil who interacts one-on-one by generating a clairvoyant reading on a certain problematic topic. I have the ability to read on a subconscious level so I would read a person's consciousness memory tapes for sexual abuse, or for extreme anger or jealousy, or a serious mental disorder or an addiction.
Neil would then take my cassette tape listen and go over it with the person. He has really developed a lot of abilities and insights to help a person change in very significant ways. Over the years, we have deeply interacted with many people who were sexually abused. Neil is writing a book from his experience of what he has seeing interacting with incest survivors. I am also writing a book about incest from the readings I've given to people.
A sexually abused person is usually in a lot of selfish reaction that hurts them long after the experience. With many people, much of that reaction is conscious, but with some it is subconscious and it really affects the people around them, especially young children, infants, and unborn babies.
Unborn babies and infants pick up on, understand, and react to their parents’ subconscious content, so their parents’ resentments, anger, or whatever they have suppressed in their subconscious their babies feel that and respond to that negativity. If what I am seeing and sensing is true, your little Dana would be at the effect of your reactions. In particular, to your anger toward your father from the experience you had with your father.
I decided to do this present time reading on you because when I tune into you I get an openness. I get a green light to read you on an energy level, so will take the liberty of doing this in the hope that you will be open to hearing it and it will help in some way.
The way I read is I look at your energy body and read your energy centers, which I will describe what I see as I go a long. I'm looking at ideas that you are holding, feelings that you have, and psychological factors that are right up there in present time right now. When I do a present time reading like this, I will usually see all the current reactions to a significant past experience such as childhood sexual abuse. In that way, your current reactions will become clear, then I go in deeper and try to see what the abuse was about and how you responded to it.
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