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"Elsa"
Incest Survivor Case Study
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Names and other
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First energy center
I am being drawn to Elsa’s first
energy center. She wanted to
have a relationship with her
father, wanted his love, so she
accepted the abuse, and never
told her mother because she was
afraid to tell her.
I am getting that her father was
sneaky and needy. He would
approach his daughter sexually
in tentative, fearful ways. He
would sneak into her bedroom
late at night and touch her in
sexual ways. He was rarely
aggressive. In fact, he usually
felt quite inadequate.
I am going to put out some
things here that are coming to
me somewhat randomly. Her mother
felt superior to her husband. In
addition, because of her
attitude he often felt
frustrated and angry in relation
to his wife.
Elsa was in competition with her
mother for her father's
affections. By not resisting the
sexual and feeling connection
with him, Elsa considered
herself to be better than her
mother. She told herself that
she “had” her father's true
affections.
her father was very emotionally
dependent on Elsa. His emotional
clinging made Elsa feel
important. She believed that she
had to give to him in order to
make things better for him. Not
accidentally, i am seeing that
the man who Elsa has married has
the same kind of needy feeling
as her father had and is greatly
emotionally dependent on her.
Two years old
Elsa’s father was attracted to
Elsa almost from the start. I am
also seeing Elsa being angry,
feeling deceived, and being
aware that her father was
focusing on her and wanted to
use her. There was a strong
feeling-connection between them.
Even in infancy, her father felt
that his daughter somehow had
more understanding and was more
open to communicating with him
than his wife.
Daddy loves me
Elsa was a great relief to her
father. He welcomed his
daughter’s aliveness and
continually sent good feelings
toward her. In contrast, her
mother was extremely suppressed
and felt hard and closed to
Elsa.
Elsa was like a breath of fresh
air. Her father felt that he
could open up his heart to her.
He loved the way she looked,
loved her big eyes, and felt
good whenever he held her. Elsa
received her father’s feelings
as acceptance, approval, and
love. On the other hand, her
mother considered her daughter a
burden. Her mother did not want
a baby; Elsa translated into
added stress and inconvenience.
He needs me
Elsa also felt her father's
insecurity and his longing for
love. He felt that he needed
this child, and needed her
love—more than that, he depended
on it and depended on Elsa. This
made Elsa this feel good and
worthwhile; it almost gave her a
purpose in life.
Mother cold and heartless
The energy vibrations that Elsa
usually felt from her mother
were cold and unloving. Her
mother lacked emotional warmth.
She was very structured, came
more from her mind, and related
to Elsa and others from her
ideas, rather than, from
heartfelt feelings.
Elsa longed and looked for a
feeling connection from her
mother, felt an exaggerated lack
because she was still too young
to relate to and interact with
her mentally.
No feeling
It is not that Elsa was not
feeling any feelings from her
mother, but her mother was so
mental that compared to the
feeling experience she was
having with her father, it
seemed to her that her mother
was “unfeeling.” Next to the
intensity of her father’s
feelings, she hardly felt
anything significant from her
mother. However, the intensity
of his neediness also disturbed
Elsa. It also made her feel
sorry for him. She was not
rejecting this aspect of him
primarily because she liked the
other feelings he projected.
Beautiful girl
As a young child and throughout
the years that followed, her
father saw Elsa as “his
beautiful girl.” He was
extremely proud of her. His
admiration was something that
they had between them. It was
obvious that her mother did not
feel the same way; this father
and daughter had a special
relationship that did not
include mother.
No money
Her father was envious of his
wife. It seems that she had
money or had the ability or
power to make
money—substantially more money
than he had or could possibly
earn. This made him feel “less”
and not as important as she. The
money issue degraded him; it was
a constant underlying concern
for him that affected his sense
of honor and pride. He usually
went along with his wife because
he did not want to lose the
relationship and felt inferior
to her.
Sincere
Her father felt he could
experience sincere feelings with
his daughter. Elsa responded to
him with what felt to him like
love. She connected. This
connection started out as
something that both father and
daughter saw as basically
positive.
He valued and appreciated Elsa’s
openness, but was using her to
feel good, mostly because he
usually was not feeling good
about being with his wife. I am
seeing that is why it went the
way it did, because this father
was using and not really loving
his daughter in a sincere,
genuine, right way.
Heartless
Elsa’s father thought that his
wife was heartless. He knew she
cared about him, but for some
reason just was not able to open
up and freely and passionately
express herself emotionally or
sexually. Once Elsa came into
his life, in a real way, he did
not need that kind of connection
with is wife. His daughter
seemed able to satisfy that
need.
Four years old
Dancing in the dark
I believe that i may be seeing
his first physical-sexual act
here. I am seeing him putting
Elsa to sleep. It is dark. He is
holding Elsa, rocking and
kissing her. The way he is
kissing his child is wrong. He
is crossing a line.
He is kissing her head, kissing
her neck, but kissing this child
with real feelings, intense
sexual feelings. I am seeing
Elsa kind of blocking out the
feelings. She is shrinking from
them, trying to focus on being
held and rocked.
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